Laxatives

Today I binged and puked 2 or 3 times, but a lot of junk food still stayed in my body, so I drank another teapot of laxatives herbs. And ate a lot of dried plums. I don't know, I just want to get rid of all this food that is inside me... And THEN when I am clean, I can start a healthy diet. I just want to start from nothing - I need to be assured that those unhealthy products I have eaten are still being digested and truly affect (still) the way my body works even though I've changed the way I eat. I hate being held back. I just have to clean myself up. Maybe I need a detox.