68,1 FAT FAT FAT

I'm supposed to go back to school and my PE lesson on Monday, not sure how I'm gonna do that. Why do I always dream about doing something, but never have a courage and determination to actually DO it? So pathetic. I want to know how it feels to actually ACCOMPLISH something through the sorrows and thanks to determination, not "luck". I used to know this feeling, when I was younger, when I was 13 years old and I would have such strong will power that I would eat 3 apples a day for 2 weeks in order to lose 5 kilos. I remember it was a great feeling, this flat stomach...Why can't I return to that state of mind when you are so determined you can do ANYTHING... You can finish and get satisfaction...

67,8

It's 2 p.m. so kinda late for weigh-in, but this is what scale shows :)
That's really fine, if I don't mess up I might achieve my goal. I can't understand how from 64,5 I came to 69... again. I mean, I promised myself that I won't make the same mistake... again... and I did :) But there is no point in whining about it, nothing ever happens when you do that. Positive attitude actually does help. Well, I'm going to eat my breakfast now cause I woke up a few minutes ago. I have to prepare myself cause there is possibility that I go to the club tonight... I'm scared, I don't have anything to wear. Grrrrrr. If only I were skinnier...

First Day of Winter Break

Well, I won't share the results of my morning's weigh-in, let's say that it wasn't satysfying (to say the least). I've decided to spend the day cleaning tidying my room, I haven't finished yet. I hope that in the evening when I actually DO finish, I will watch a movie and do some cycling on my stationary bike. I didn't eat any sweets today, I didn't binge or puke, I am perfectly able to manage my chores. It feels so good not to be dependent on food. I must get going now, I hope I will be able to post something about my weight loss in the next few days, grrrrrr. Hold tight!

68,7 and 1 more exam to take

Yep, I've gained weight again but I won't grizzle about it cause it's pointless. Today I am eating clean and I'll try to find a moment for a walk or exercises, and I will study a lot because I have my last exam on Tuesday and I want to pass it and be able to focus on my body, just to have those 2 weeks to do whatever I need to do to get in shape. It's not impossible, two weeks are plenty of time, I've discovered it already. I just need to take care of myself. I need a little bit free time to do it, so, I am going to make myself a strawberry milkshake or light cottage cheese with dark bread and I'm getting down to Geography.