59,8

Lately everything has been quite rocky. Studying, partying, not eating, drinking and smoking; then binging and purging... Not sleeping enough. Thinking about this guy. Everyday. I don't know what I feel or what I want anymore... I'm confused. I'm lost.

My weight is fluctuating, it was like 61,7 yesterday morning. I want to start running again, but it's freezing outside in the evening. I want to start eating normally again, although it's hard after more than a month of this starving/drinking/binging/purging cycle.

I don't know what is happening in my head or my heart right now.