59,7

Hey ho,

I stopped taking laxatives, I don't puke that much - it is quite good. Weight isn't that bad either.
I try to eat half of my meals healthy; like a cottage cheese with radish; grilled chicken; fish soup - I am trying to avoid carbs, I let myself eat sweets in the morning though :D

Unfortunately, I started smoking again but I will try to cut on it soon. I generally feel pretty good:) Have to dash now, but keep you posted!

60,4

Oooookay, so a lot has been happening last months and I was too busy to be able to write here, although I have been promising to myself that I would. Especially last two months and one person by whom these two months were owned. But this person is gone now, far, faaar away and I will probably never see her again in my life. This thought makes me very sad and nostalgic and it was really hard for me to deal with it.

That is why I want to focus on myself and my diet again. Focus on getting closer to perfection, the closest I can get. To achieve everything that I have planned or I only will plan in the future. I want to be this perfect girl; for myself. I don't care how much it is going to take, how much it is going to take from me but I am willing to give it. Whatever it takes. I am ready to fight this battle now.