It is so sad when you are on a diet for a period of time, and then everything gets fucked up ONCE and it stays that way... I mean, once you start binging and purging (just once, just one day) you cannot really break the circle. so you do it repeatedly, day after day, and you cannot even start eating healthy, properly... it is so sad. And yesterday also- I started my day with an ice-cream (a very good one, I admit). It was like 320cal, and I didn't eat for 4 hours then so it was normal intake when it comes to calories, but I ate one more little popover and then I drank sweet liquer and... everything fucked up :) I've started drinking hot water in the morning, it is supposed to clean your body.