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I have my @ so I do not weigh myself because that only makes me sad and I know I have gained weight and I am fat. Yesterday I didn't sleep practically at all and I had to wake up at 5 o'clock cause at 7 I had to be downtown ready to work (shift from 7 to 16). Today I have both classes and errands to do... I am so tired and I eat so fucking much, and so fucking much sweets. I hate myself for that. I have to get a grip cause I feel like shit.

Everything is even harder as my bestfriend is so beautiful...